The ego, which now and then cannot resist the temptation to judge or to become afraid, to get stuck in thoughts, to flee out of the body or to ask for pity, struggles deeply with itself. Making that unnatural movement over and over again — to not run away from fear or pain, but to face it fully — is no small thing.

❥ It requires courage and strength. It asks you to make this choice.

The lessons of this moment are those of changing old survival patterns. And those hurt.

We are invited to see how we respond to inner pains, to self-disapproval, to self-rejection, to self-judgment, to fear of failure, to loneliness — and there, in the midst of these inner storms, to dare to make different choices.

Then it may happen that you are tested again, precisely when you begin to grow stronger, or when you do something powerful and significant for the greater whole. It is then that you are often challenged and severely tested — by internal forces (what you have not yet healed) or external counterforces (from the old consciousness/old thought patterns within yourself or mirrored by others) — forces that test you and work against you, through which you truly begin to feel your strength and must consciously apply it, connected to your heart.

The stronger you become, the greater your trials will be, also in the world

This continues throughout your life, until you arrive at a point where you enter a kind of neutrality. The remarkable phenomenon of letting go and living through asks a lot from our unconscious ego on the way to a higher consciousness.

If you manage not to use your usual defense mechanism, you will first find yourself in a period of strong imbalance… only to truly return to balance afterward, loosened from your old patterns that no longer fit but once served you so well.

Creating internal safety happens in that moment

There, in that brief imbalance, lies your truest, real feeling. In the not-knowing, you must begin to feel: your strength, your being, your intuition, your greatness, your courage. Do not suppress these—let them enter the world from your light.

Keep directing your attention inward, fully connected with yourself, and feel what needs to be healed, taking it on in small steps each time. Make it manageable.

At a certain point, you learn to guide yourself through your (old, unresolved) grief and loneliness. But above all, you learn to reconnect with the freedom within you, with the connection to who you essentially and naturally are. Your greatest treasure is yourself. You are the greatest gift to the world by being fully yourself — then the world can open and reveal its true self as well.

The more you dare to devote yourself to what you call your own darkness, the more you come to know it and the more you emerge from your shadow parts

Because you are ready to be seen by yourself and others from your own light, in the greatness that you essentially are, and destined to become who you are from your essence, your soul, your spirit, your soul mission. The more you become aware of this within yourself, the more others can recognize this light in you and activate it within themselves as well.

❥ And then a powerful call rises from your soul – the call of inner freedom.

❥  Your time has come to take the next step toward your greatness.

❥  This happens step by step; it presents itself naturally. Be gentle with yourself and stay committed.

When you live from your heart, you live in a good way for yourself, and therefore naturally for others. That feeling, that inner experience, that is your core.

Learn to listen to yourself: what are your needs, what are your desires? Give this to yourself — what do you need, and arrange it with the possibilities within your reach. That is your gift.

Keep going, don’t give up: the reward comes later. This reward is a higher consciousness, unconditional love, no more inner pains — and that is true freedom.

Tamara Beekmans

www.vrouwenkrachtacademie.nl